We’ve decided to move back to NC towards the end of the summer. I feel so guilty living far away & I’d really like my dad to spend as much time with Oliver as he can.
Last night we had our first dinner with Oliver & the boys entire immediate family… They really, really drive me crazy. I feel terrible that I don’t like them but they are so much to handle. It’s really his mother that drives me the most insane. & it’s not because she’s his mother; she’d annoy the hell out of me even if I didn’t know her. Anyway, dinner was too much. Then they all wanted to hold the baby & rub their fingers all over his hair. His brothers girlfriend wanted to hold him so badly but completely forgot to mention she’s never held a baby in her entire life. I almost cried. I’m so happy we are moving. I’m such a terrible person for saying these things. But sheesh, it’s a relief. I really love his grandmother though. She’s helped us out so much & is the cutest little lady on the planet.
We took Oliver on his first walk today. The weather was amazing & he slept the whole time. I can’t believe that he’ll be three weeks old tomorrow.
i’m sitting here at my desk, listening to andrew bird. the babe is next to me in his swing. i’ve had way too much coffee today. but that’s okay; it’s the new blonde coffee from starbucks & it’s delicious. the boy went back to work last week. it’s been strange not having him around all the time. but it’s so sweet when he is home. today i’ve been organizing our bedroom. finding the perfect little spot for everything & throwing so much away. i need a bad television intervention. it’s getting ridiculous. but i’m home all the time with nothing to really do other than stare at my baby & watch netflix & hulu. only four more weeks until i go back to work. i miss the shop but i really do love getting to spend this much time with the little man.
soon i will write about his birth. how nothing went the way it was planned but that is perfectly okay. he’s perfect & amazing & all mine. i’m so happy that he is finally here & i can kiss him all the time. i love him more than all the stars & planets & moons.
Today I found out my dad has an incurable cancer. At best he’ll have five years to live. I think my little family needs to move back to North Carolina. I feel so guilty for being far away. I also think it might be time to have a real wedding. My dad has to walk me down the isle.
